Eating disorder sufferers receive a lot of blame for their condition. People see the behavior, but they don't see the illness. That's because it's a mental health condition; while you may see what's happening on the outside, you can't see the actual sickness. You can't see what's going on inside, and because of this, mental [...]
Looks from people passing by Their looks of pity asking why As though they think I have the answer But I am simply this puppet’s dancer. Embarrassed beyond all means, I just want to be like other teens. Praying that they won’t see, What is truly wrong with me. Metal chains wrapped around my wrists [...]
*CW: Mention of eating disorder behaviors “One last thing: I congratulate you on your journey of recovery.” Recover: Verb, to return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength. Was I...normal again? I look at my computer screen, the pale glow the only source of light in my apartment. My legs are curled underneath [...]
There is a hole in me. It sits right below my skin and consumes all the parts of me that are not blood and tissue. This hole lacks any light, you cannot see into it, you can not pull anything out of it, you can not put anything into it. It just exists, moves with [...]
Up and down… Up and down… Up and down… Over and over again… Mania exhibits itself as a hysterically excited companion, Chortling and guffawing and chattering with gnashing teeth, Expansive eyes shifting every which way, And a gnarled smile snaking throughout my mask. A dark-eyed playmate who never sleeps, An atrophied friend who never eats. [...]
And sometimes all I want Is to fall into the sea And sometimes others happiness is a taunt And other times I need it to distract me Always I want to drive for miles on end But never will it suffice For my same problems are around the bend And only in my dreams is [...]
Red tile, right foot. Black tile, left foot. Repeat. The bell was about to ring and I couldn’t be late for class again. A quick glance down the hallway told me I was almost there. A few people shuffle past and throw a few weird looks. I ignore it. If I stopped caring about where [...]
Moments of safety and strength are where I live now. Yet every day I miss you. I can laugh, cry and smile now. This is power. I wouldn’t trade these abilities to feel your cold steel grip again. Yet every day I miss you. I pass a scale and feel your skeletal fingers beckon me [...]
Whenever I've had rescue animals, they have been older animals needing new homes. Last spring was the first time our rescue animal was just a baby. She was a 7-week old kitten who was so tiny that she slept inside our shirts. We named her Lily. In her first week at home, one of us [...]
This past Shabbos I was reminded of how far I think we have to go in how we treat a large percentage of the population. A relative’s kid had come down with a case of cancer and the whole family was in disarray and going through a ton of anguish. The sympathy I felt, and [...]
