I don’t want you to leave me.
I am scared
that you will. But don’t please. I can’t imagine a world without you in it. My life is better with you around. Listening, validating, talking to me about how it can be…better. How I can get better. I know how hard you try to be here.
No matter how many times you assure me that you won’t. No matter how many times you’ve made it abundantly clear that you’re in this with me. You’re my partner for life no matter how fucking hard it is. That I know. Or do I know it? I am not sure sometimes but you tell me it is okay to be unsure.
No matter how down I get. You are with me through it all. I try so hard to push you away and you stay anyway. Thank you for being there. Thank you for telling me that I am not crazy. That your brain has the same thoughts as mine and that I am not alone. Not ever, not now, not always.
Thank you for weathering the storm inside my brain for me, for you, for us.