Hey Anxiety, I am tired. Here is how you make me feel: I want to lay down but my heart is racing and my brain is a suitcase packed with thoughts and only some of them are recognizable or able to be decoded. I can't distinguish one thought from another and I am beginning to [...]
I am posting this for me. I don't care if anyone reads it. I'm not looking for validation. I am doing this for me and me only because for once in my life I've got to ignore and tackle my pride. At this point, I'm not concerned with what people think. I've got to get [...]
I don't want you to leave me. I am scared that you will. But don't please. I can't imagine a world without you in it. My life is better with you around. Listening, validating, talking to me about how it can be...better. How I can get better. I know how hard you try to be [...]
We connect but sometimes I feel like I am speaking another language. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's "my anxiety." My heart races when I wake up in the morning and I grab your arm for support. You try to tell me it's going to be fine and I want to believe that, but I [...]
The Day I Told an Entire Country That I Have an Eating Disorder By Kira McCarthy Eating Disorders have the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder. They also have the biggest stigma. Eating Disorders (ED’s) are misunderstood, not talked about, and extremely dangerous. What makes them so dangerous is the silence. Too many people, including medical professionals, [...]
I've been through some shit, but I am not my trauma. Things have happened to me. Things I've spoken about in therapy, but they are not who I am. Sometimes "bad" things happen to "good" people. I can't explain why these things have happened to me. I have no explanation for the words that have [...]
Grip the door handle, opening with reluctance Entering foreign territory to the mind Walk to the booth, shaken to the core From the cold and sudden fear Family reads the specials for today Chowder, cheese, chocolate ganache Trembling with each word that graces my ears Time for the great escape Lavatory, my sanctuary Nauseating emaciation [...]
It's my brain, but I didn't ask for it. We are all born with a brain, this we know, but what we are not responsible for is what makes up our brains. My brain or my mind has a way of doing its own thing. Sometimes I'm surprised at the thoughts it has. Sometimes I [...]
Asperger’s sucks. It’s like you’re stuck at the bottom rung of a social ladder, and no one cares. Like your hands are slippery and the step is wet and every damn foot above has to step on your fingers. Asperger’s is like treading on eggshells blindfolded. It’s like playing a game where everyone but you [...]
“It’s okay to be a broke-dick,” by Javier Luna “Don’t be a broke-dick.” I heard this phrase a lot during my 4 years in the Marine Corps. In the military, we come up with a plethora of colorful and derogatory phrases to make the drudgery and bullshit more bearable. This one, in particular, is used [...]
