I don’t remember her at all. I was four when she died. I recall standing in the kitchen hugging a woman’s leg. I suppose you could say I remember her but that wasn’t her. That was her leg. I remember going to my uncle’s house one day and there was explaining why. They told me [...]
I’m a great actor; I fooled everybody including myself. I go on stage and I smiled, I laughed, I cried. Nobody knew what to believe. I am another out there version of myself on stage. I am who I choose to show you. I am a creative genius- I can fool you into believing that I’m normal. [...]
And I give you… my anxiety disorder I’m only thirty-three years old, so I figure I’ll have another good fifty years left to live before I’m dead, that is if I don’t get hit by a car, bus, train, get shot, stabbed, bludgeoned to death or just simply drop dead because the internet is a [...]
If you aren't an addict, addiction can appear selfish. The person who is addicted to a substance or thing seems all-consumed with that thing. They can't consider anything else but that thing. People become addicted to things for various reasons. They need to medicate their pain or they want a way to feel good. Addiction (on [...]
I'm with you. The way that you want me. More than anything. You told me that you weren't ready to be in something real. A "real relationship," rather than just friends. He was abusive You said. I can be there. I can be that person for you. I said it and I meant it. I'll be [...]
Trigger warning: suicide. She doesn’t understand why I want to be by myself. She thinks I don’t love her but it’s not that. I love her so much. I wish she knew how much I loved her but it’s just not enough for her somehow. She says that I hate people. I don’t know; I just [...]
Foster Care & The Shame Spiral Lisa Marie Basile For as long as I remember, loss was the ghost that haunted my world. I knew it too early: as a child, my parents both used drugs and fought and struggled to pay rent. We’d move from house to house, and then to homeless shelters—with my [...]
As I sit here writing this we are on night three of sitting in the ER with my 12-year-old son Judah, waiting for a bed in the peds psych unit. There are 5 beds in this hospital unit and 7 kids waiting, 6 of them are ahead of my son. The average wait in the [...]
I sat in her office playing with the tiny doll figures. She asked me who was who. Was that the daddy? Yes, that's the daddy. Is this one the mother? Yes, that's the mother. She wanted to know what I was doing. What were they doing? Was I there. I was there. I was watching [...]
Trigger warning- suicide It’s hard to understand when someone takes their own life. Suicide is a tragedy and it leaves the family wondering what happened; especially if there is no note left behind. What we do know is that the person who passed away was in pain. After their death, it's normal to grieve for [...]
