I wanted you to save me. That's why I stayed with you. But I was wrong. You can save me or fix me. I have mood swings. Sometimes I run around the house cleaning everything, singing at the top of my lungs, and I'm euphoric, haven't slept for days. I want to please you, be [...]
I wish I had control over my hands. I feel like I do, and then I wash them until they're raw. I'm afraid of dying. It's hard to explain if you've never experienced this. I don't know when it started, probably around seven years old. I was afraid of getting sick. I didn't want to hold [...]
I thought she hated me. When I went to school that day, she wouldn't look me in the eyes. I couldn't explain why I canceled. It was just too much. I couldn't explain why I didn't go to the convention. I just didn't want to see people. This unbearable sadness hit me when I tried [...]
Trigger Warning- Abuse Please Trust my Said Delusions Created by: Jessica Painter The television or the desert Where grenades were the stars You wished on night after night Overcome by fear of Iraqi shadows That danced on your sanity And made you afraid to turn off the lights - Daddy, this is not the usual [...]
Awake. Alone. Fighting thoughts. Sleep evades me. I close my eyes and I cannot stop my thoughts. They keep racing and won't leave me alone. They won't leave me alone, but I am alone, oh the irony. It isn’t fair. I want to be peaceful. But my mind won't allow that piece. For once I am not thinking [...]
I didn't want to, but I cried in front of her and I don't know why. I can't tell you what it was about her that made me feel like I could show her my feelings. Was it her kind eyes? Was it the fact that she knew me so well? I don't like to [...]
Sometimes love leaves for a while. Your heart breaks into small pieces of glass and you feel that pain...or at least I did, when it left me, he left me. He said, "I want someone simpler." He didn't say that. But, I know he meant it. I'm complicated, intense, scary even if you don't know [...]
Living with bipolar disorder and working in the healthcare system I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 14. It was uncommon for children this young to be diagnosed with this diagnosis. When I was at my absolute worse, I was unable to see myself accomplishing anything in the future. I couldn’t go [...]
The thing about Depression is this: it's a sore loser. If you were playing Connect Four with Depression, it would be angry if you got four reds in a row. Who wants to play with an opponent like that? It sounds terrible. That's how Depression is though. It wants to win against you. It's intimidating, [...]
The best way to get help is to be real. It's hard to be real because it requires you to look inside yourself and ask serious questions? What is it about me that I want to change? Am I happy with who I am and what I'm doing in life? Do I feel depressed? Do [...]
