When I didn’t show up for an out-of-town assignment, my clients were concerned. When they couldn’t reach me, they called first my wife, and then the hotel. The police and EMT’s found me mid-morning, unconscious. They thought it was a murder scene. Blood-red vomit covered the bed and the floor. It had projected up the [...]
What I Learned From Alex When I was in high school, there was a kid in my class named Alex. Friendly and theatrical by nature, he was the class clown and got along with almost everyone. Almost everyone. There were a few guys a grade above us who never cut him a break, giving him [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Two years ago, May 5, 2014 started as any Monday would start at our home in the suburbs of Boston. It was a beautiful, sunny New England spring morning. My husband Gary decided to sleep in a little later than usual and would come into the office before noon. This wasn’t unusual [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Five years ago on April 24th, 2011 I lost my best friend. I lost her to suicide. I didn’t know about the Depression, Anxiety, and the feelings of being worthless. She was always happy, cheerful, and in a good mood. No one ever expected my best friend to take her own life [...]
Trigger warning - suicide I think we can all agree life isn't worth living. The question is: are you too lazy to do anything about it? Most people are. Usually I am too. One day I wasn't, so I sliced open my wrists and downed a bottle of Klonopin and waited to fall asleep and [...]
*Trigger warning - suicide. In four days it will be a year since I lost my only brother to suicide. The past year has been the most excruciatingly painful of all my 23 years. I was naïve to think I had ever known pain before April 8th of 2015. The days, weeks, and months that [...]
Free The first time I thought about killing myself, I was seven or eight years old. My parents had recently separated. With their separation, the thin film that had kept me from falling into a dark hole wore through. In fact, I had reoccurring dreams about it, about a hole, in our front yard, sucking [...]
Trigger warning *talk of suicide I’m a walking. talking contradiction…at least in my mind. Living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder makes me feel like a complete hypocrite because of my contradictory thoughts. I’m simultaneously stressing out about all the things I want and need to do while I have many thoughts that [...]
My story is one you have heard before. I suffered in silence for many years while Major Depressive Disorder slowly destroyed my mind. Alongside the disorder, I also had worsening sleep apnea which denied my body, and mind, the rest it needed to recover. Together, my self-esteem was destroyed and my ability to function in [...]
There have been many times where I thought death was the only option for me. Life didn’t seem like it was worth living anymore. From a young age, I had to start making lists of things and people that were important to me and made my life worth living. Those lists were always very small. [...]
