Kevin Hall's ruminations on his own suicidal thoughts. Yesterday—in front of my two younger children—I nearly choked to death on my grilled chicken dinner. What should have simply released a heavy sigh of relief in my wife’s ear at bedtime contorted into a sleepless night of revisiting another recent near miss: Last month I wanted [...]
One Man. Talking About His Life With Depression. "I'm ready to tell my story. It's time." That's what I heard from Stuart Walker, owner of Clubhaus Fitness, a tall, muscular guy with a boisterous laugh and incredibly busy schedule. He knew I was researching Perfectly Hidden Depression. He had listened to me talk about how [...]
There’s so much that I could truly say, but would it make sense whenever I said it, probably not. But it’s always worth a shot right. Truth is, even whenever it seems like its not the right thing to do, don’t be afraid to take a chance. That’s what I live by. What doesn’t kill [...]
I received a meme once from a friend that said “Someone’s therapist knows all about you” and it dawned on me how scarily accurate that probably was. I’ve left quite the wake in my 37 years of life and not all of it has been sunshine and roses. The majority of my life, save the [...]
When I didn’t show up for an out-of-town assignment, my clients were concerned. When they couldn’t reach me, they called first my wife, and then the hotel. The police and EMT’s found me mid-morning, unconscious. They thought it was a murder scene. Blood-red vomit covered the bed and the floor. It had projected up the [...]
What I Learned From Alex When I was in high school, there was a kid in my class named Alex. Friendly and theatrical by nature, he was the class clown and got along with almost everyone. Almost everyone. There were a few guys a grade above us who never cut him a break, giving him [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Two years ago, May 5, 2014 started as any Monday would start at our home in the suburbs of Boston. It was a beautiful, sunny New England spring morning. My husband Gary decided to sleep in a little later than usual and would come into the office before noon. This wasn’t unusual [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Five years ago on April 24th, 2011 I lost my best friend. I lost her to suicide. I didn’t know about the Depression, Anxiety, and the feelings of being worthless. She was always happy, cheerful, and in a good mood. No one ever expected my best friend to take her own life [...]
Trigger warning - suicide I think we can all agree life isn't worth living. The question is: are you too lazy to do anything about it? Most people are. Usually I am too. One day I wasn't, so I sliced open my wrists and downed a bottle of Klonopin and waited to fall asleep and [...]
*Trigger warning - suicide. In four days it will be a year since I lost my only brother to suicide. The past year has been the most excruciatingly painful of all my 23 years. I was naïve to think I had ever known pain before April 8th of 2015. The days, weeks, and months that [...]
