I would say, the most profound relationship I have had in my life is with the one that made me so familiar with my fingertips and the acid in the throat. The relationship that makes me feel guilty for putting any type of food in my body. The one that draws me in everytime something stressful happens. There is a comfort in the pain. A comfort in thinking I have control of something in my life. The somber truth is that you do not have control when you have an eating disorder. The eating disorder controls you.

31 year old new Yorker. Vegan, hiker, lesbian

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