Trigger warning - sexual assault In one of my favorite movies, "Interstellar," two characters have a conversation about the nature of evil as they go out into space and the great unknown. "You don't think nature can be evil?" One character asks. "No," the other replies. "Formidable. Frightening. But... no, not evil. Is a lion [...]
"I died yesterday" Since I was a child, I knew I was different. I could never fit in anywhere, not at school, not at church and not at home. My dad died when I was seven years old. My mother was dealing with her own depression at that time and my sister was in her [...]
I recently learned in therapy how you can observe a thought and not judge it. Be with that thought, let it roll down the river in your mind. You can even imagine the actual words flowing down the water. I thought that visual was cool. It can be hard to implement this strategy when your [...]
Hey Anxiety, I am tired. Here is how you make me feel: I want to lay down but my heart is racing and my brain is a suitcase packed with thoughts and only some of them are recognizable or able to be decoded. I can't distinguish one thought from another and I am beginning to [...]
I am posting this for me. I don't care if anyone reads it. I'm not looking for validation. I am doing this for me and me only because for once in my life I've got to ignore and tackle my pride. At this point, I'm not concerned with what people think. I've got to get [...]
I don't want you to leave me. I am scared that you will. But don't please. I can't imagine a world without you in it. My life is better with you around. Listening, validating, talking to me about how it can be...better. How I can get better. I know how hard you try to be [...]
We connect but sometimes I feel like I am speaking another language. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's "my anxiety." My heart races when I wake up in the morning and I grab your arm for support. You try to tell me it's going to be fine and I want to believe that, but I [...]
The Day I Told an Entire Country That I Have an Eating Disorder By Kira McCarthy Eating Disorders have the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder. They also have the biggest stigma. Eating Disorders (ED’s) are misunderstood, not talked about, and extremely dangerous. What makes them so dangerous is the silence. Too many people, including medical professionals, [...]
I've been through some shit, but I am not my trauma. Things have happened to me. Things I've spoken about in therapy, but they are not who I am. Sometimes "bad" things happen to "good" people. I can't explain why these things have happened to me. I have no explanation for the words that have [...]
Grip the door handle, opening with reluctance Entering foreign territory to the mind Walk to the booth, shaken to the core From the cold and sudden fear Family reads the specials for today Chowder, cheese, chocolate ganache Trembling with each word that graces my ears Time for the great escape Lavatory, my sanctuary Nauseating emaciation [...]
