Living with bipolar 1 disorder is quite the challenge. My manias are bad, but the depressions that follow are always worse. I recently started working a part-time marketing job. Work works for me. It gets me out of the house and gives me a purpose—not to mention a paycheck. Before the job, I would freelance [...]
I wanna give you all a proper description of what I mean when I say that I am The Laid Back Schizophrenic. It's how I've come to accept who I am and how I handle myself in society with my diagnosis. I won't lie and say that I'm 100% happy with the cards I've been [...]
When we are young and in school, the first spectrum we learn about is about colors. How there are so many different variations on blue, purple, red, green, etc. So many in fact, more colors exist in the world than we have probably even encountered. Spectrums are funny like that. Like how Ted Bundy and [...]
The journey to finding my strength is a work in progress. My name, Briana, is defined as strength in Celtic. My strength is defined as finding acceptance for myself. The summer of 2014 would change my life forever. Throughout the summer, I was experiencing more sadness than usual. At first, I did not know what [...]
One fish Two fish Three fish Four Five Six Seven Eight Nine I can't say ten Red fish Blue fish Green fish First my pinky Then the hands Marks crawling across my arm Scabs that never heal I can't stop picking Always three Always three Always three Never can step on cracks in the pavement [...]
Being different is not fun. At least, that's what I used to think. Ever since I can remember, I've been different. I didn't go to a regular school, I didn't wear the clothes that everyone else did, and I didn't do things the way other people thought they should be done. I'm still like that. [...]
February 3, 2019 “Transformation is achieved through suffering alone.” - Buddha “Only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength.” - Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions (Alcoholics Anonymous) Since I was a kid, I’ve been treated for what used to be called dysthymia, and is now know as [...]
Loneliness is a feeling that most people experience at some point in their lives. In the year of 2000, a solid 25 percent of people were living alone in the United States (Olds & Schwartz, 2009). Although I am unsure about the actual percentage of people living alone in 2018, I must admit that I [...]
Panic - Jacob Greb bad day 106 out of the 200 since january first. i know because like an idiot i track it. three short breaths and i cannot catch any air. am i even breathing? is the air at all entering my chest? i lean forward and take one long inhale. a bit of [...]
Dangerous Diagnoses - Aaron J Smith I’m dangerous. I’m a rage-filled monster who could snap at any moment, hurting those close to me. I’m primed to lash out at friend, family, or stranger. My anger is just below the surface, bubbling, and boiling, threading at any moment to take over and turn me into a [...]
