Trigger Warning- Abuse Please Trust my Said Delusions Created by: Jessica Painter The television or the desert Where grenades were the stars You wished on night after night Overcome by fear of Iraqi shadows That danced on your sanity And made you afraid to turn off the lights - Daddy, this is not the usual [...]
Awake. Alone. Fighting thoughts. Sleep evades me. I close my eyes and I cannot stop my thoughts. They keep racing and won't leave me alone. They won't leave me alone, but I am alone, oh the irony. It isn’t fair. I want to be peaceful. But my mind won't allow that piece. For once I am not thinking [...]
I didn't want to, but I cried in front of her and I don't know why. I can't tell you what it was about her that made me feel like I could show her my feelings. Was it her kind eyes? Was it the fact that she knew me so well? I don't like to [...]
Sometimes love leaves for a while. Your heart breaks into small pieces of glass and you feel that pain...or at least I did, when it left me, he left me. He said, "I want someone simpler." He didn't say that. But, I know he meant it. I'm complicated, intense, scary even if you don't know [...]
Living with bipolar disorder and working in the healthcare system I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 14. It was uncommon for children this young to be diagnosed with this diagnosis. When I was at my absolute worse, I was unable to see myself accomplishing anything in the future. I couldn’t go [...]
The thing about Depression is this: it's a sore loser. If you were playing Connect Four with Depression, it would be angry if you got four reds in a row. Who wants to play with an opponent like that? It sounds terrible. That's how Depression is though. It wants to win against you. It's intimidating, [...]
The best way to get help is to be real. It's hard to be real because it requires you to look inside yourself and ask serious questions? What is it about me that I want to change? Am I happy with who I am and what I'm doing in life? Do I feel depressed? Do [...]
Living with Asperger's is not an easy feat. It never is. imagine yourself in a room full of people. All of those people are laughing and mingling. Meanwhile, you aren’t. You’re sitting there in the corner all alone, watching everyone make nice with each other. Nobody doesn’t even acknowledge that you’re there. You just sit [...]
Our Mirrors and Their Cracks I was born with a mirror given to me. This wasn’t an ordinary mirror; in the sense that it never really reflected my actions as I moved in front of it. In my younger years, when I looked into this mirror, I always saw one still image. I’d always see [...]
What do you want to do with your life? That question has been hounding me for a long time. Since I was in high school, I was trying to find my purpose like so many others my age. We were asked that question since we were little kids and, given our lack of understanding of [...]
