When I didn’t show up for an out-of-town assignment, my clients were concerned. When they couldn’t reach me, they called first my wife, and then the hotel. The police and EMT’s found me mid-morning, unconscious. They thought it was a murder scene. Blood-red vomit covered the bed and the floor. It had projected up the [...]
"You’re a joke. You know that, right? No one likes you and if no one likes you they for sure won’t like your writing. Your story is shit. Your writing is shit. Give up now before you embarrass yourself." That’s my anxiety talking, or maybe my depression. It’s difficult to tell sometimes. Either way, they’re [...]
I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, and PTSD. Over the last few years I found myself in a very dark and lonely place that I honestly didn't think I would get out of. This dark place led me to psych units across the eastern part of the United States, and as time went [...]
What I Learned From Alex When I was in high school, there was a kid in my class named Alex. Friendly and theatrical by nature, he was the class clown and got along with almost everyone. Almost everyone. There were a few guys a grade above us who never cut him a break, giving him [...]
Where is the Sunshine? A journey through the storm into the light I don’t recall exactly when it hit me, but it hit, and when it did I was lost. One-minute I was the epitome of the girl who had everything; successful, with a beautiful family, and a wonderful home and the next, I was [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Two years ago, May 5, 2014 started as any Monday would start at our home in the suburbs of Boston. It was a beautiful, sunny New England spring morning. My husband Gary decided to sleep in a little later than usual and would come into the office before noon. This wasn’t unusual [...]
I Say, I'm Recovered. However is there such a thing. I don't abuse laxatives, or make myself purge. No longer restricting calories, or missing social events. The Photo Attached: is from 2007 during the dangerous part of my struggle. I look at this picture it makes me want to be skinny. But I also remember [...]
I can’t speak for anyone else who has suffered from a mental illness but I have an uncomfortable confession to make. I feel like I should admit that during my absolute worst, I was conceited and felt special and unique in my pain. When I began exploring the idea of writing about my experience with [...]
Part Of Me “Normal is illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.” –Morticia Addams My life as a liar began when I was very young. I was an awful child. I made everyone in my life angry, constantly. I did very bad and horrible things every day. I was too [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Five years ago on April 24th, 2011 I lost my best friend. I lost her to suicide. I didn’t know about the Depression, Anxiety, and the feelings of being worthless. She was always happy, cheerful, and in a good mood. No one ever expected my best friend to take her own life [...]
