Living with Asperger's is not an easy feat. It never is. imagine yourself in a room full of people. All of those people are laughing and mingling. Meanwhile, you aren’t. You’re sitting there in the corner all alone, watching everyone make nice with each other. Nobody doesn’t even acknowledge that you’re there. You just sit [...]
Our Mirrors and Their Cracks I was born with a mirror given to me. This wasn’t an ordinary mirror; in the sense that it never really reflected my actions as I moved in front of it. In my younger years, when I looked into this mirror, I always saw one still image. I’d always see [...]
What do you want to do with your life? That question has been hounding me for a long time. Since I was in high school, I was trying to find my purpose like so many others my age. We were asked that question since we were little kids and, given our lack of understanding of [...]
I’ve been denying it, hiding it, covering it up, but the pressure of pretenses has become too much. I’m never going to be “normal”, or my version of it. I get that ‘normal’ is not a real standard anymore. People are starting to own their differences and not allow themselves to be placed in a [...]
Although I have had an opportunity to rack up a fair share of successes, there was a time when I could barely leave my house as I struggled with the crippling symptoms of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), which causes uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts and behaviors. This struggle occurred due to one major reason: there was little access [...]
My breakthrough Three years ago, I checked myself into the emergency psychiatric unit. In the three weeks leading up to that hospital visit, I went through cycles of agitation, moments of paranoia that the helicopters overhead were coming for me, and had several epiphanies. The notes I scribbled on my discoveries were simply gibberish. It [...]
March 2015 I trudged through the sand of Santa Monica Beach awaiting the celebration which was to ensue upon my arrival. The beach was filled with spectators as I went to the shore to set up shop. I laid out my beach towels and camouflaged workout gear. I scattered shells and crystals about with magic [...]
We're all a little broken. Me you everyone. It's a matter of how much we talk about it. What do you want to do with that brokenness? Do you want to acknowledge it? Is it hidden? Broken isn't bad. Broken is real. It's human. It's a part of you. Broken doesn't necessarily need to be fixed. [...]
Too often we focus on what's wrong with us. What's your diagnosis? Depressed? Borderline? Paranoid Schizophrenic? Panic Disorder? All of these terms are just a way to develop ways to help people. Put a name to the thing that's "wrong" with you and now you have a section in a textbook to look at to [...]
It pisses me off that I can't remember things. My memory used to be so great. I could recall tiny details of things that happened in college or wild nights that I had in high school. I've been told that anxiety and trauma influence your memory. For example, when you experience a traumatic event, you [...]
