When I was in my early 30s, I had to go to a state facility hospital. After my release, I went to another hospital to stay for a while. At that time, they told me I was schizoaffective - I had no idea what that meant, and I felt like I was the only one. [...]
Reflecting back on the last almost decade and a half of my bipolar diagnosis, I’ve noticed my perspective has shifted when it comes to considering the most difficult part. At first, it was the mania. Not exactly being in the middle of an episode, but the aftermath of what to do with purchases, or bank [...]
Our internal dialogue plays a huge part in shaping our opinion about ourselves. What happens if your internal self is always in hypercritical mode, always telling you that you’re stupid or ugly or fat or can’t do anything right? Having an inner self that says things like this to you on a daily basis destroys [...]
They say that bipolar disorder doesn’t usually show up in women until they are in their 30s and that it takes an average of 9 years for her to get a diagnosis. That’s not my story. I live with Bipolar Disorder (Type 2), and it manifested at an unusually young age. I had dissociative episodes [...]
*Originally published by Inside The Bell Jar My words are shooting stars with no filter flying rapidly like demons in the sky, the ego soars drenched with sorrow. The air is funny today. Molecules bouncing around so rapidly- so many multiplying! I can see them and the wind pushes me and I fall some more [...]
Broken. You are not. Step over the glass. Walk through the fire. Wrong. You are not. Speak up louder. Know you aren't a liar. Less. You are not. Show the whole world. Leave your impression. Different. You are not. Shift their perception. Schizophrenia, Anxiety, Depression. Healing. You are. Nurture your path. Be a new voice. [...]
Living with bipolar 1 disorder is quite the challenge. My manias are bad, but the depressions that follow are always worse. I recently started working a part-time marketing job. Work works for me. It gets me out of the house and gives me a purpose—not to mention a paycheck. Before the job, I would freelance [...]
I wanna give you all a proper description of what I mean when I say that I am The Laid Back Schizophrenic. It's how I've come to accept who I am and how I handle myself in society with my diagnosis. I won't lie and say that I'm 100% happy with the cards I've been [...]
When we are young and in school, the first spectrum we learn about is about colors. How there are so many different variations on blue, purple, red, green, etc. So many in fact, more colors exist in the world than we have probably even encountered. Spectrums are funny like that. Like how Ted Bundy and [...]
The journey to finding my strength is a work in progress. My name, Briana, is defined as strength in Celtic. My strength is defined as finding acceptance for myself. The summer of 2014 would change my life forever. Throughout the summer, I was experiencing more sadness than usual. At first, I did not know what [...]
