For as long as I can remember, I was always the nervous kid. You know the type; the one that couldn’t spend an entire night at a sleepover without calling her parents. The one that feared rule breaking and things that meant taking risks like roller coasters and sneaking out. The one that feared life [...]
EMPTY ________________ Dear friend, Let’s talk about some heavy stuff today. I really need to get it out if I don’t.. I feel like I will loose myself in this depression. Its been 24 days now since I have been this way. I have been in and out of this depression funk for years now, [...]
I sit back in my room right now and think how can I be useful member of the society. Like many people would say it – get up and get going. It sounds so easy to just get up and start realizing your dreams. All you need is to take one step. But this is [...]
Bright and early one Monday morning my phone rang. I saw with shock that it was my dad, awake and calling before 7 a.m. Clearly something was wrong. "Could you stop by on the way to work?" he asked, sounding cheery. I sighed. I was already squeezing in a workout and still hoping to get [...]
I have always had what I believed to be a normal life: childhood with ice-cream and delightful summers, good grades and compliments from my teachers, slightly risky teens with a few of stupid decisions (nothing too serious), confusing enter into my twenties and just as I turned 25 I started to wake up… Nothing extremely [...]
I am what my therapist and doctor call “high-functioning.” I have major depression and anxiety disorder, but like many with this illness, you would not be able to tell by looking at me. I am able to get groceries, read books I like, and participate in life, MOST of the time. One of the rotten [...]
I Cried... Long, Hard, Delusional, Anxiety, Depression Cried... I should be writing my book. I had absolutely nothing planned for this weekend except for book writing. It's just awful that my brain had other plans... My brain is acting out the Civil War in my head with the South being my Depression and Anxiety and [...]
SELF-DIAGNOSIS: THE FIRST MISTAKE OF AN IGNORANT, MACHO MAN “I can’t believe how easy this is going to be!” I said to everyone quietly reading around me. No one else in the Reference Room of the 13th & Broadway Branch cared how well my research was going. But they should have cared. It’s a really [...]
Overwhelming Emotions I don’t know whether I’ve really talked about my connections with Stigma Fighters before, but they’re important (to me, at least) and related to recent happenings. In early January 2015 I was offered the position of Executive Assistant, and I accepted. Then in early September 2015 I received an email from Allie asking [...]
I’m a runner, when things get too much and I can’t face my world, I run. When I was small shy and anxious were the words people used to describe me. I lived inside my head, reading, writing and drawing. Getting lost in another world meant I didn’t need to face my own. I still [...]
