I Say, I'm Recovered. However is there such a thing. I don't abuse laxatives, or make myself purge. No longer restricting calories, or missing social events. The Photo Attached: is from 2007 during the dangerous part of my struggle. I look at this picture it makes me want to be skinny. But I also remember [...]
I can’t speak for anyone else who has suffered from a mental illness but I have an uncomfortable confession to make. I feel like I should admit that during my absolute worst, I was conceited and felt special and unique in my pain. When I began exploring the idea of writing about my experience with [...]
Part Of Me “Normal is illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.” –Morticia Addams My life as a liar began when I was very young. I was an awful child. I made everyone in my life angry, constantly. I did very bad and horrible things every day. I was too [...]
Trigger Warning- Suicide Five years ago on April 24th, 2011 I lost my best friend. I lost her to suicide. I didn’t know about the Depression, Anxiety, and the feelings of being worthless. She was always happy, cheerful, and in a good mood. No one ever expected my best friend to take her own life [...]
Is it true that deluges fill a void in your heart that many drugs fail to numb? I have heard wolves crawl into my skin and wither their way into my insecurity. I have felt the novel shift of having a skeleton and collapsing under the weight of it. My mother dreamt of a night [...]
Trigger warning - suicide I think we can all agree life isn't worth living. The question is: are you too lazy to do anything about it? Most people are. Usually I am too. One day I wasn't, so I sliced open my wrists and downed a bottle of Klonopin and waited to fall asleep and [...]
Hi. My name is Niraj Chandan. I have had mental health issues for twelve years. I am on medication. This post might help some people get a better idea about mental health issues so I think it’s worthwhile I went through through normal teenage experiences like thrill highs and lows. But what happened in my adult life [...]
I majored in psychology, for a year or two at least, in college so I took plenty of psychology classes back in the early 90s. I remember taking one class in particular. It was called “Abnormal Psychology”. I remember learning about bipolar disorder and thinking, wait, other people don’t feel this way? Other, “normal”, people [...]
Trigger Warning: Talk of panic and paranoia. We're All Mad Here I have spent a vast amount of my adult life battling, confronting, denying, engaging and dancing with my nemesis diagnosis of Paranoid Schizophrenia. Most of the time I find myself just stuck. Belligerent thoughts that argue back and forth that are not my own. [...]
Bipolar. Manic depressive. Those were the only words I heard come out of my doctor’s mouth. Unstable. Mental case. Crazy. Insane. Those were the words that ran through my mind. I was sitting across from her at the desk. Those words were thrown in my face as if they meant nothing at all. That’s because she [...]
