For as long as I can remember I have felt as if I don't belong, like I just don't fit in this world. I think that these feelings haunting me everyday are something that seriously contributed to the development of my depression. I have a hard time even pin pointing when this started but I'm [...]
When I was in high school, I would wear a bow in my hair every day. It became my signature. People in my community knew me as the happy girl with the bow. I was bow girl. When I was seventeen, my depressive symptoms arrived. I felt miserable and I didn't know why. I didn't [...]
Ever since I have made my way out the burning heaps of OCD that used to surround me, I have found myself in a constant state of fearing the relapse. When I read my journal entries dating back to when I used to struggle with my OCD, I feel happy that I am not going [...]
“My Struggle with OCD” Throughout the entirety of my life up until my sophomore year of high school, I considered myself to be a very outgoing and enjoyable person. I had plenty of peers and loved going out to either just relax and talk with friends or carouse and have a “memorable night”. I [...]
Often I have found that many people around me do not fully grasp the concept of a mental illness. The term mental illness, to them, is like an alien game. Something that they do not much about, but think that they do. Having a mental illness isn’t a scream for attention. A person’s mental health [...]
Sometimes, I want to hide behind a rock. A rock with moss; That sprouts from my tears, Kept upon the sand Of things that I lost. Hidden in a labyrinth Of missed chances. The rock will be my home, Until I am ready to come out To the world where you Have to wipe your [...]
Monday, June 20, 2016 10:38 PM Emily’s Bedroom Anxiety: Hey what’s up? Emily: Nothing much, how about you? You doing alright? You’ve been kind of M.I.A lately. Anxiety: I don’t want to talk about me, I want to talk about you. So you say not much has been going on? That’s a lie. I heard [...]
Bipolar Tide My mind moves like the ocean, coming and going with the moon. The tide rolls in—mania, I am at the top of the world. There’s nothing I can do, mental waves crashing down. Vision distorted by emotion, can’t trust my brain anyhow. The tide rolls out-depression, I am the lowest of the lows. [...]
The Art of Losing Your Mind © 2015 Walk in the silent darkness Where internal voices encapsulate and surround us Where lives fragment, shapes waver, and worlds fall away We go to a place where others cant follow... When you lose your mind - where is it to be found? When life has been dismantled, [...]
Neural Plasticity in Recovery The old adage “once an addict always an addict” was the dominant mindset of society for much of our history. Then came the advent of 12 Step Programs starting with anonymous programs like AA and then NA. This came with an increased understanding within the medical and scientific communities about the [...]
