I have been dealing with my mental health for at least 3 decades, since I was about 12 ( maybe even younger), but it actually never occurred to me that I had any mental health" illness" or "disorder" or whatever people like to call it, until I was first put on a 5150 (involuntary 72 [...]
Eating Disorders have a higher mortality rate when compared with other mental illnesses. And yet it continues to be stigmatized and not talked about enough. Diet culture is pervasive and clever, and the selling of “health” as a product we can consume affects all our choices, whether we are conscious of it or not. It [...]
I have had an eating disorder for longer than I have not had an eating disorder. It shocks me how little people still know and understand about them. When new studies come out about eating disorders, they have never discovered anything that I haven't already known for years. I don't know what they are studying [...]
Usually, I do best with a steep learning curve, logical facts to wrestle, and practical plans to make. So when I found myself pregnant again (mostly accidentally) when my oldest was 22 months, I settled in to figure out a way to deal with what was crippling post-partum depression the last time around. It was [...]
When I was in my early 30s, I had to go to a state facility hospital. After my release, I went to another hospital to stay for a while. At that time, they told me I was schizoaffective - I had no idea what that meant, and I felt like I was the only one. [...]
Reflecting back on the last almost decade and a half of my bipolar diagnosis, I’ve noticed my perspective has shifted when it comes to considering the most difficult part. At first, it was the mania. Not exactly being in the middle of an episode, but the aftermath of what to do with purchases, or bank [...]
Our internal dialogue plays a huge part in shaping our opinion about ourselves. What happens if your internal self is always in hypercritical mode, always telling you that you’re stupid or ugly or fat or can’t do anything right? Having an inner self that says things like this to you on a daily basis destroys [...]
They say that bipolar disorder doesn’t usually show up in women until they are in their 30s and that it takes an average of 9 years for her to get a diagnosis. That’s not my story. I live with Bipolar Disorder (Type 2), and it manifested at an unusually young age. I had dissociative episodes [...]
*Originally published by Inside The Bell Jar My words are shooting stars with no filter flying rapidly like demons in the sky, the ego soars drenched with sorrow. The air is funny today. Molecules bouncing around so rapidly- so many multiplying! I can see them and the wind pushes me and I fall some more [...]
Broken. You are not. Step over the glass. Walk through the fire. Wrong. You are not. Speak up louder. Know you aren't a liar. Less. You are not. Show the whole world. Leave your impression. Different. You are not. Shift their perception. Schizophrenia, Anxiety, Depression. Healing. You are. Nurture your path. Be a new voice. [...]
