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Underneath She Can Hear Me

Underneath she can hear me. After every performance, I went backstage, downed a beer and shut off my feelings. It was easier that way. Music was and is my way to cope with pain. I could sing my anger and pain out. I've tried everything to get in touch with her, from writing, therapy to going [...]

By | 2018-04-21T15:03:02+00:00 April 21st, 2018|Categories: Uncategorized|0 Comments

Stay in my body – *Trigger warning – sexual abuse

*Trigger warning - sexual abuse Stay in my body. I don't want to. I wish I could float above it like I used to when it started to happen. I want to check out. I want to be free. I don’t want to remember what happened to me. I don’t want to recall hands on me. [...]

By | 2018-04-18T01:45:18+00:00 April 18th, 2018|Categories: Uncategorized|Tags: |0 Comments

Prozac and Nail Biting

Prozac stopped my nail biting I used to be a nail biter. I can remember biting my nails from the time that I was a small child (probably only six or seven) I would do it when I was nervous because I needed something to focus on rather than anxiety . But at the time [...]

By | 2018-04-13T07:09:03+00:00 April 13th, 2018|Categories: Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, OCD, Panic, Uncategorized|Tags: , , |0 Comments

Daniel Meeker

I can remember sitting in my therapist’s office and feeling a distinct sense of loss. I had just been given a temporary and non-medical diagnosis of Cyclothymia. For months leading up to this moment I had been dealing with increasingly harder downswings followed by upswings of mania. Most of these episodes would happen over the [...]

By | 2018-04-12T02:34:15+00:00 April 12th, 2018|Categories: Bipolar, Manic, Uncategorized|Tags: , |0 Comments

Mother

I don’t remember her at all. I was four when she died. I recall standing in the kitchen hugging a woman’s leg. I suppose you could say I remember her but that wasn’t her. That was her leg. I remember going to my uncle’s house one day and there was explaining why. They told me [...]

By | 2018-04-09T22:38:54+00:00 April 9th, 2018|Categories: Uncategorized|0 Comments